Sunday, December 7, 2014

Diary of Mind ; 1

So, now i'm not into writing about food. Well yeah that's impossible but i'm serious,  i want to talk about my life quite a while. That's why i named the tittle "Diary of Mind;1" it'll go on and on and on :D

I'm a very expressive person on the Social Media and that's why my twitter has 70.000 more tweets in the past 4 years and i have blogs, a facebook, i even have google account, and another social media account that has been forgotten. But in real life, i'm so...hmmm what's the propper word to say about i'm not shy but i don't like to express my feelings towards people.

Sometimes i thought Human irritates me like VERY MUCH. I don't like going outside, i don't like crowded place, i'm so nervous to talk with people (even i know em), i get anxiety and panic when i'm in a place that i don't know (even if i go with someone i know). Oh and the funny part is that i don't like talking through phone. I HATE IT....i don't like it because that's the time when people realized that i have annoying voice >.<

I know it sounds riddiculous...Even my crush didn't buy it. Most of the people who knows me, they see me as a very fun girl, a charming (yes i'm not lying) one and so cheerfull like they see me smiling everyday. So when i acted like i'm the most saddest person in the world...they just like ' are overreacted'

But maybe that's the point of my life...I'm a happy person but loner at the same time. It feels like living in heaven but still can feel the air of hell under it. Deep down i want people to understand this kind of feeling, but maybe they have their own problems so this isn't a thing to be worried about.
 I get's okay...i'll find a way to fix my personality and will get better and better in the future.

So that's just it...the only thought that crossed my mind and i feels like i need to share it on blog.

I'll post more about food and recipes soon >.<
*now i kinda in the middle of exams and last assignments, so it's so stressfull and please pray for me!

Bye Guys...Nighty Night


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